30 Days of Honesty

Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

Wow. I would have to go back to high school I think to answer this question and even then, I don't think I have an answer. Not one person sticks out. I can't say that I was ever a target for bullying. I was by no means one of the "cool" kids but I certainly didn't get picked on and held my own. I had a great group of friends that I had gone to elementry school with and I am still friends with many of them.

Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

I think I have a few people on this list. [names will NOT be included, sorry]. I mean, Nick and I are in a completely different phase of our lives right not and our priorities are completely different than some of our friends. I mean they will always be friends and in time when many of them "catch up" on the baby train I'm sure we'll reconnect. Kind of sad. I've had a few moments that I've told Nick that I was lonely because I didn't have someone going through this with me. I have friends that are ahead of me but more of them are behind. I don't get calls to hang out. BUT, when I look at Madelyn I could care less if I go for a drink or not.

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Hmmm. Again, another tough one that I am not quite sure I've got an answer for. I mean there are a few people that I wish I didn't know but who doesn't right? [And I don't think blasting their names on the internet and calling them out for every wrong thing they've done to me or my friends would just be right, it would just make me like them]... does that make sense?

 

Its been a while since I posted a picture of the two of us. I seem to take hundreds upon hundreds of pictures of her. I just can't seem to get infront of lens... okay, I do but I never like the picture. I will work on that.

Madelyn must be going through a growth spurt and teething... UGH! Bum rash... waking hungry early in the morning, waking after being in bed for an hour or two crying. I've given her tylenol [insert shameful look on Mommies face]. I don't know if she's actually teething. I mean ALL the signs are there and her symptoms are very similar to her teething for the bottom two teeth. Drooling, chewing everything, waking after being put down for bed... She is still sleeping thru the night [look above with a thankful smile]. She won't let me look in her mouth or insert my finger to feel the top teeth. But she didn't let me do that with the bottom ones either so no surprise there.

We are going to be getting a visit from Baby M today! So excited to meet the new little guy. So, I need to get Madelyn to nap! She's fighting it a little...

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Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Easy. I would say two people. First and foremost, my amazing husband. If it weren't for him we wouldn't have my second reason for living, Madelyn. Nick has been an amazing best friend and partner. I truly feel that I am a better person for not just knowing him, but being lucky enough to have him in my life. His love, guidance and support has made my life easier. I hope I can repay him in the same way.

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Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.

I've always hoped I would get a University degree. I started going back part-time before we were trying to get pregnant but now that she here, I just don't know how I would swing it. I always thought I would go back while on maternity leave but I want to spend as much time with her and Nick as I can... plus get back in shape, keep up with friends. Seems like its gone by the way side. And over all I think I am okay with waiting to get it done, for now.

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.

I really hope I never have to deal with the death of close relative. (I don't mean grandparents) THAT is my biggest fear. Very morbid, I know. But its the truth after all.

 

 

 

Here's a few pictures of our cute little giraffe from Sunday's craaaaazy busy day. At the end of the day when we finally got her in bed, I had to think to myself - Was it really worth it? Huh. [Insert a pondering look on writers face] She was a trooper as we carted her around to all the grandparents and then out for some trick or treating with Baby E. Doesn't she look adorable as a giraffe. I wish that she would let me dress her every hallowe'en until she can't go out anymore! Handing out candy you really got to see that the older the kids get the worse their costumes (or lack there of) were. Some didn't even look like they were dressed up as anything. Oh well. Move one. Next holiday is Christmas! And she is going to ball at Christmas -- but first we have to get thru Mexico... WOW thats coming fast!

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Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.

Wow, another hmmmm. I think I am really good at holding grudges. I like to think when I say its "Ok" I move on. But I don't. I am not good at forgiving. I am good at saying its Ok, lets move on. I don't have one person I need to forgive for anything in particular. I think that over the years, there has been times that a disagreement has sparked and instead of dealing with just the one issue I tend to bring up things that I've burried.

ORRRRR maybe i have to forgive someone (not going to mention here who it is but those that truely know me and the situation will know who I am talking about -- sorry for being vague, its the internet after all and it wouldn't fair to air out everything on here). We will call this person "F" and will not refer to the sex of said individual. Hope thats okay with you reader...again I apologize maybe this makes me not being super honest? I have to forgive F. for being who they are. For having a very different approach to raising kids than me. I have to let go of all the lying F. has done, look past the fakeness, and just remember that F. will never change and its not worth arguing and fighting over. F. is who they are, and after all they do say, you can't teach an old dog new tricks. Its just not possible to change people.

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Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Hmmm... I should have read this yesterday so I would have had last night to think about this one. Something I have to forgive myself for? Tough. I honestly can't think of that one thing right now... maybe I will come back to this one once I think of one?